Just analyzing the surroundings and thinking about my journey from childhood. Mom you bought me to the world. From picking up my Frocks from market then their matching sandles and shoes and accessorizing me best for very festival or important occasion. You made your reflection your way. Slowly growing up with time Badi ma you introduced me to the usage and importance of my inner clothes and changes in my body. Not being shy and not being loud but by just being subtle in every way to accept the female body. Learning home skills and cooking skills from badi chachi and dadi. You taught me the importance of learning every art in life. Surrounded by unfavourable and not supportive aura how to shine in my way, choti chachi you guided by creating yourself an example.

My two sweeties you actually helped me in understanding the situations in sasural and keeping my faults and secrets the way they are. Nurturing the family values and traditions you my second mother i owe my this learning to you.
 Getting out with peace and ease after every problem is just because of the set of females i have around me. In fact whenever there is a feeling when i go deep into the emotion of not making people understand my thoughts beliefs and actions there is always a lady who pull me out give me a ray of light. I have actually observed and interpreted that:

• Being a women I am incomplete without a women support.
• Behind every successful man there is a women and also behind every happy, positive and successful women there is definitely a strong genuine women.

Happy Women's Day. 

kabhi kabhi lyf mein sabse zada zaroori hota hai khud se ladna, khud ki zidd, khud ki in securities.
bahut sari cheeze hoti hai humare ass pass jo hum pe hasti hai humara mazak banati hai par sochna hume hota hai ya kahu ki nazariya hume badlna hota hai. SAbse pehle khud ka respect, khud ki priorities khud ki kushiyo ko aage rakhna, samne walo ko ya phir khud ko he pehle ye samjhna ki tum kitni important ho kitni unique ho.
DAys nikalte chale jayenge, tym aage badhta he jayega but ruk k khud ko sambhal lena bahut zaroori hai, ek naye path ko define karna ek nayi manzil ko achieve karna bahut important hai so rukne ka kabhi nahi sochna hai

Movie out!!

Person whose food, clothes even a single step was with me or i would say i was the one who decides for him,' is just growing.' Yes, of course i know this is quite natural and obvious. But i asked myself "Am I getting younger!!" 

Me and his papa are great movie lovers but this time it was not our choice but "he" decided for a movie and that too with his chosen company.
Title of the Movie: Chhota Bheem Himalayan Adventure
Venue: PVR Ambience, Gurgaon

Audience: Kids 3-6years

Popcorns, chocolate mousse and smiling sparks on faces, Daksh and his friends(the gang) occupied the seats the way they want and we the mothers were just watching with no words. Recalling their old days: sitting on the laps and watching a movie in cinema hall then making them engaged in some or the other stuff so that they can sit well for a while and let the movie entertain the audience.

I have never imagined that this show will be entertaining me the way it did that day. I actually realized that this is this brat whose unusual laugh, O teri expression and just a gesture he pass, will take me to my little days. Sorry chhota bheem and the director it was my bheem who buckled my eyes and feet throughout the show. 

Hey dude i am always in with your kind of movie program with your friends.

Mother's call...

29th January 2015, the day which marked me once again standing on the door with bag,bottle and lunch box in my hand and my second hand, holding little fingers which are feeble, but strong and excited to get inside the door. Big building with lots of swing, kids, teachers, didis and big graffiti all over. We called it or rather i should say name given by Daksh is 'Daksh ka school'. 

I was the one  and the most called out with whom he used to spend his time, 'mumma susu aayi hai', mumma book kidhar hai, mumma mujhe khelna hai, mumma mujhe run karna hai, but then that day I realized that now all that mumma word has to be transfered to the MAM. Now his well being for this major hour of the day has to be taken care by the word Mam.

Oh god it will be difficult for me!! mumma to mam, mumma to mam, it is going to be very hard for me to accept. But then it has to be come his way. A milestone which will enter his world with many changes, many new people, many understandings and many colors which he can fill in his way. Son I welcome you hard but whole heartedly with mixed emotions of happiness, fear, excitment, love and just love to the new chapter of your book '''LIFE"'.

How to pen down this feeling i don't know, but ya feeling happy with something not very huge or very special is just wow.
Had this really bad mood :(, actually i am tired of explaining my deeds, efforts. I really wish that someday people will just enjoy living with you instead judging you for no reason. Anyways last evening i was busy with my usual household stuff, Daksh dude was busy in the balcony talking to his didi girl friend(girls who adore kids with words like awww,,,cuttuuu,,,babudi,,,) and the door bell rang. I was completely lost in my thoughts(jab mood kharab ho toh mai aur meri tanhai stuff) i didn't realized that someone was dere on the door then the voice popped "aunty"(the word i have actually accepted because i am a mother now) then i opened the door and there was this gang of brats and cuties. I used to teach these kids(age5-9) Hawaiian dance as there was some event in the society but eventually had to leave it few days before the 'D' day. Smiled automatically flashed and they just ran and gave a huge big hug to me. "We really missed u aunty? Aap kab aaye? Our dance performance was excellent :) and yes we are tired, can you please fetch us with our favourite milkrose(Milk+Rose Sharbat). I was speechless and was so happy.
These kids really didn't realized that what they have done and taught me.
Loving someone for no reason
Hugging someone for no reason
Visiting to see someone for no reason
Putting and spreading smily faces for no reason
 Thank you guys
 

Aacha lagta hai

Tera neend mein mera haath ka sparsh dhundhna, acha lagta hai
Tera chalte chalte ruk jana, phir palat dekhna aur muskura dena, acha lagta hai
 Bheedh mein ghire rehne par bhi teri ankho ka mujhe dhundhna, acha lagta hai
Chote chote haatho se mere baloon se kehlte kehlte neend ki godh mein tera jana, acha lagta hai

Saathi ban mere saath har kadam badahna tera, acha lagta hai
Meri musroohfiyat mein bhi tera khayal karna mujhe, acha lagta hai
Ghira rehna tera sab se, phir bhi woh aawaz sirf mere liye hona, acha lagta hai
Hone se tere, mere naye jazbatoon ka ehsaas bus acha lagta hai.

Jo dil mein hota hai vahi anko ko dikhta hai

Jo maan mein hota hai vahi zubaan se nikalta hai

Phir kyu ye zamana kehta hai ki kahe huye alfaz kuch aur hai aur dil ki dhadkan kuch aur!

Patta tuth k daali se jab girta hai toh uska koi thikaana nai hota

Nadiyo, jharno aur hawa k saath behta jata hai

Samay k sath din b din badhta hai aur phir bhuda ho ek din tahar jata hai kaun thikaana uska pata
nai!
Tinka tinka bator kar ek chidiya apna gharonda bundti hai phir ek tez hawa ka jhoka use hila deta hai

Maan ko sambal karke apni bagiya ko seechta hai mali phir ek bhawra aak phul ko keh deta hai
aapna

Kya mali ka tha kartavya he itna sab karte huye bhi kuch na kehna!

Bar bar gir kar uthna uth kar phir girna ek rith hai zindagi ki

Par dhundna us hath ko mangna uska sath kya kar sakta hai wo

Mana haq nai dusre pedh ki dali ko hath pakad kar chuna aur apna kehna

Par kya koshish karna use apni zindagi mein shamil krna bhi mumkin nai!

Hazaro log guzarte hai us bagh se us ek bench par baithte hai tamam shaqs

Usse kehte hai sab apna uspe likh dete hai alag alag naam par wo khadi ek he awlamban mein

Ban jati hai sabki kya keh sakti hai wo kisi ko apna!